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My new Life

So so many people told me while I was pregnant who my life was going to change.
At the time I was like no, how much can your life change, I mean its an addition to my family not a tornado or earthly disaster.

Well One month and seven day as a mom and MY LIFE HAS CHANGED!!!!

I totally love looking in my daughters eyes and see her eyes piercing back at me. She is a joy.

However I didn't realize that I totally am everything to her.
Like Breast-feeding is a chore.. I love that I have a great milk supply (literally river of jordan) and since I am home on maternity leave I feed her on demand.

So what has changed let me list

• Not being able to leave out the house....
• I am a socialite and not having the social stimulation or being able to freely go out and ride makes me cabin feverish!
• Feeling like a Cow
• Rayna loves feeding and she feeds regularly every 2-3 hours. So trying to sleep when she sleeps and be ready to feed when she is. Is difficult
• Not feeling productive
• I still haven't sent out my thank you cards from all of my wonderful baby showers. 
• Unable to blog or document Rayna's first
• Cooking dinner is a once a week occurrence
• Quick Showers-- NO BATH
• No sex life or intimacy with my husband
• Our goals and efforts all focus on her. 
• He cares more about me feeding her, caring for her.. sometimes he forgets to ask about ME
• I'm to tired to think about it
• Emotions
• I sometime feel like I am all alone, not depressed but because I waited and most of my close close friends have children and at a different place than having a newborn, I feel alone.. But I reach out to my new moms that I know.. Facebook helps too!!
• Feel like my husband gets to go freely because he doesn't have to think about breast-feeding or getting back home to pump or fitting clothes.. He just goes.
• Night time shift is me!! My husband sleeps right through my night time rounds with Rayna!
• Date night
• Sleeping in my husband arms

I would do it all over because I am reminded by God this is a temporay season. I will work on the above list but to be honest all these things don't matter because next month will be a different set of issues.

 I just accept the fact that my life has changed as a mom my priorities have changed... But I am graced to be Rayna's mom and I can do it...